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I am finally beginning to readjust to being home. I felt disoriented and dopey for a while there. Last night I slept for 14 hours. My flight landed about 10am and I went to bed at 6.30pm. This morning I felt rested but unsettled. I didn’t know what to do with myself somehow. But that has now passed and I am very glad to be home in my own wonderful bed with the lovely peace and quiet of my surroundings.

I enjoyed my visit to Arizona and I enjoyed meeting Bekki. We had a great time together all in all, especially considering we’d never met before spending ten nights in the same room! It could have been murder really if you think about it. Oh, we had our moments - just as any two people in close proximity would have done - but we worked through it ok and I think we’ve both learnt things from each other - I hope so anyway.

My focus now I’m back is on my garden. There has been a lot of rain in my absence (hooray!) and everything is looking lovely and green. Including the weeds I need to trim my hedges and chop down a plum tree that has split in half. I have some plants to bed in the ground and potplants to pot on. I’m doing the domestic routine thing now to help settle back into normality.

The weather here is lovely now, cool with some sun and some cloud. It hasn’t rained since my return but everywhere is still damp. Arizona reminded me of Adelaide in the spring - hot and dry. It was in the 90s most days which is bearable but too hot for me over all. It is lovely to come home to cooler weather.

I will now attempt to catch up with my blog reading and see what you have all been up to while I’ve been away. I’m sorry not to write anything profound or deep at this time but I am just readjusting. I believe things are going on in my psyche on a superconscious level that I can’t quite articulate or make concrete at this time. My lower mind has kicked in again after being on holiday itself for ten days, and it is giving me some ideas for the future.

I had several meetings with people at the conference, especially a wonderful woman who lives here in Adelaide and who I consider a mentor/teacher. Contacts have been made with other internet/multimedia people including a freelance editor/producer/director from Hollywood. Some plans are on the drawing board for projects we might begin to work on. Funding is being sought too. I think things will begin happening in that area fairly soon. I won’t be giving up my day job though It would be a long time I imagine, before I could make a living from these projects. But I think I am in the right place in my paid employment - the direction it seems to be taking dovetails beautifully with the projects I would like to be involved with for my service work. All seems to be panning out as it should.

I trust. I have faith. Life is good, all in all. I feel better than I have ever felt with my life as a whole. Sure it isn’t all I would really like it to be yet, however I have plenty and am learning to be happy and content with what I do have, especially when I do have so much. Emotionally, I am more settled than I have ever been - the great yearnings and longings have passed. Somehow, without quite realising it, I find I have enough going on to satisfy my emotional needs. It isn’t what I imagined I’d need or want, yet somehow it works. It is not what my daydreams entailed all these years, however reality sometimes is better than fantasy. Such I am finding now.