Money

I have managed to spend over $2000 in the space of a few days. First paying for the hotel room in Arizona and today I had my car serviced. It needed new shock absorbers and two new tyres. An expensive week. Not looking forward to my next credit card bill.

Money is something I’ve never had to worry much about. Sure I’ve had times when I have, in theory, not had enough coming in to meet my expenses but somehow I’ve always trusted that I’d be ok financially – and I have. It isn’t because I earn loads of money or have a private income – it is just a belief that I have that there will always be enough.

It works too. I remember a decade or so ago being really strapped for cash. I had a mortgage to pay and had just been made redundant from work. I returned to full time study for over a year but the redundancy (which was totally unexpected) netted me a payout (which was unheard of in the company I worked for at the time) that enabled me to pursue my interests and pay the mortgage for a year.

Other times I’ve needed small specific amounts – and the cash has appeared unexpectedly. A tax refund, a gift, a lottery ticket win, a reimbursement for something or other.

So generally speaking I don’t stress about money. I give a fair bit away to charities because I believe that money needs to flow. It seems the more you give the more comes back to you. I have been made redundant three times in my working life – more than most people. Yes, those have been stressful times in many ways but they have been lucrative financially – I’ve had $58,000 in payouts over the years. In Australia we have long service leave after 10 years continuous service with an employer – as I have never worked anywhere more than 5 years I have never benefited from this three months leave on full pay. But I figure that my redundancy payouts have more than recompensed me for missing out.

I have never counted how much money I have spent on travel and study but it would be a considerable sum. My faithful canine friend, Shadow, cost me a small fortune due to medical problems she developed (her medication alone was $100 a month for 7 years). I don’t begrudge a single cent that I have paid out for any of these things. Money is not to be hoarded but to be used. I know that is easy for me to say as I’ve never gone without, but I do think it is this attitude that helps that. I have been unemployed or only working part time and trying to pay a mortgage and run a household at various times – when the books definitely didn’t balance on paper – yet somehow I managed. I’m not really sure how to be honest.

Beliefs play a large role in our lives and what we manifest. It seems money is one area that I am ok in. I have no fears about meeting my basic needs – survival, shelter, food etc. I have a tendency to find beautiful places to live in – even when I’m renting. I do ‘homes’ really well.

It is just the emotional realm that has caused me so much grief over the years and I know this is also due to my underlying beliefs. Only in this area they are not so positive. But they are slowly changing into more helpful ones with the help of some wonderful people in my life – all of you included.

I can easily believe in abundance financially, can I transfer that belief into an abundance of love too? I’m getting there

So right now I am not stressing over the heavy financial commitments this week has brought about. I am good at budgeting and am good at saving money so I have enough to cover these bills. I am not generally extravagant and will probably be very circumspect in my spending for a while now. But hey, when you are on holiday you have to spend up, right? Right! And I need my car to be in good shape and reliable. And guess what? I haven’t done last year’s tax return yet – and I have a feeling it will result in a refund of around $2000 when I do get around to doing it. Sweet…