My Scorpio Moon

In astrology, the moon represents your mother, your roots, your basic needs and emotions. It also represents how you nurture others. It is the storehouse of your karmic past and links you to your ancestors and past lives. It represents your deepest need. Where it is placed in the chart gives much information about all of these things.

At the time of my birth, the Moon was in the constellation of Scorpio. It is placed in my third house – the house dealing with communication.

Today I woke up thinking about my moon placement, especially after my meltdown yesterday. It was quite clear to me on awaking that the moon represents my deepest need. And for me, with the moon in Scorpio in the third house my deepest need might be expressed as:

I need emotional passion and intensity and won’t be satisfied or fulfilled with anything less. I need to explore the extreme depths of my emotions and share and communicate about them.

It’s a bit like a mission statement. My extreme frustration at times comes from the very fact that I am not able to do this as much as I need. It is a basic fundamental need in me. And it needs to find an outlet in all areas of my life – not just one on one with a man.

About.com astrology says: In work and romance, they’ll need many outlets for that reservoir of emotional intensity.

Scorpio moon can be very possessive, jealous, obsessive and vengeful. I have seen this side of my nature in the past – in one relationship in particular. The person I became scared me so much that I avoided relationships after that for seven years. I will admit to having a very obsessive streak in my nature. I am working very hard now to keep this side under control. This is the very depth of emotion I am talking about – it can be dark and nasty. I don’t want to express that side actively in my life now, but I do need to acknowledge it is there and not repress it.

We Scorpio moons go to extremes. I very rarely fall in love. I very rarely am even interested in someone romantically. But when I am, boom! And when they don’t – can’t – love me back the way I love them I can fall into deep despondency. Perhaps I need to team up with a fellow Scorpio moon partner.

I probably should be working in a more Scorpionic career to allow for the outlet of this intensity. Psychologist, physician, actor, detective, psychiatrist, spiritualist, military officer. The work I have enjoyed the most involved problem solving (investigation) – gathering all the facts, working out what has gone wrong, and finding the solution. I was very good at that too. That is the only kind of detail work I enjoy – when it means fixing something that isn’t right or finding a (better) way to do something. Boring, routine work is like a living death for me. That may sound overdramatic but hey, I am a scorpio moon after all – we feel things intensely.

My childhood dream was to become an actor. At primary school I was always writing and starring in classroom plays. I believe I was quite good too. My mother used to die of embarrassment when I played the nagging wife/mother as she thought everyone would think I was copying her. I wasn’t. She wasn’t like that at all. But I just instinctively knew how to play it. My acting ambitions were put to bed when I was bullied just prior to entering my teens. I lost all confidence and, whilst I was in a few plays through high school, I never took on any lead and just wanted to blend into the background and not be centre stage. Although part of me still craved it of course.

I think it is a bit too late for me to take Hollywood by storm now :-) I can tell you though; I would have been a dramatic actor – no comedy for me. I would have chosen films like ‘The English Patient’, deep, dark, intense and ultimately tragic.

My main outlet has always been journaling. I love to write. I write my emotions. I write my experiences. I write my thoughts. The scorpio moon is scared of the intensity of their experience and tries to hide it – but it needs an outlet. Mine has always been writing. But with the third house placement I have a need to communicate my experience too – and be accepted for it. Thank goodness for blogging. I have to stay anonymous on here because I am a secretive scorpio moon, but I need to let it all out and not be judged or condemned. And thank you to you all for being so supportive and understanding. It heals me deeply each time one of you comments and shows me you accept me. It wasn’t enough to just write in my private journals (which I would die sooner than have my family and friends read) because communication needs reciprocal action. Give and take. To and fro, back and forth. And you, my friends, give me that. I am eternally grateful. I did use to daydream about my journals being published one day, long after my death.

I write short stories sometimes and even they have deep, dark themes. Death, birth, imprisonment.

I do experience deep emotional intensity when P and I make love – we communicate on a non verbal level. But it isn’t matched by our words and actions outside of the bedroom – he keeps me at arms length and I respond to that by keeping him at arms length too. I don’t want to – but a Scorpio Moon is not going to make her feelings known unless she senses they are reciprocated, and even then she’ll wait for him to speak first. And there is an element of pride in there too – I don’t want to admit I have deeper feelings than he does. The thing is, a Scorpio moon probably always has deeper feelings than their partner unless they also have a similar theme in their chart.

Secrecy is a very scorpionic key word. My relationships have always had a secretive element to them for one reason or another. Never out in the open in the plain light of day where everyone can see. The secrecy adds excitement for a while, but ultimately it is a strain. Scorpio moon needs to find a safe place to just let loose, let go and not try to hide the depths all the time. I have spent a lifetime bottling things up and that has led to depression. Now I long for things to be out in the light of day; relationships and emotions. In a safe environment of course.

Everyone has different needs, represented by their moon. Unless those deepest needs are met in some area of life, great strain and frustration seems to be felt. Scorpio moons never do it easy anyway; always there seem to be blocks and obstacles in the way. And everything is magnified and intensified by the scorpio energy.

Not everyone accepts astrology and that is fine by me. But for me it explains so much about myself and hence I can understand what is going on. It is investigative and psychological in approach and that is a big part of why I love it so much. Scorpio is the sign of tests and of self growth. It is a hard sign to deal with, but it can bring great rewards if one perseveres and learns the lessons.

I find the following description of a Scorpio Moon rather beautiful so I wanted to include a part of it here.

To understand the depth of the Scorpio Moon person, sit and gaze upon a candle light and imagine the flame as the flame that burns within the pit of your Soul.

The flame is hypnotic; it draws you deeply into a trance. Going deeper and deeper. You feel the power and heat. You marvel at the simple beauty and grace as it transforms its shape.

This is the power of the Scorpio Moon person. Strength, beauty, grace and the Power to create or destroy. But, like the candle flame, you can’t touch them.